Around you.

Around you,
I can't do anything right, unless it's turning red. Your lips are so sweet, so shapely. Your back is curved & sculpted like Michael Angelo made it himself. Do you know how much you really mean to me? Your butox, so round, so supple. My mouth waters looking at you. That's what I think of you. Your arms are beautifully, muscular looking, but not overly. The butterflies in my stomach are caused by you just talking in your chime like voice. I wish I could have you all to myself. Your stubble is prickled with only a few reasons of why I feel this way. i never had a fetish for stubble, before you. What you've got boy is hard to find, I think about it all the time. Your scent is so different from the other boy's bodies. Yours is deliciously sweetening. I bite my lips to help it from smiling. Your light skin is so softly made. I wish I had it. Your clothing makes me feel normal. Your always do, but always don't. Your hands, make mine feel different but normal, like how you feel about your own. Our personalities are like two pieces of a lost treasure, but I seem to treasure you as much as I could. I always try to. You aren't mine, but I do want you. I only show who I really am when I'm with you.

you...with HER!?!?

Are you dating her? No ofcourse not. Why do you spend every moment with her? You don't like younger girls...atleast thats what you told me, told us. Do you like her? Does she like you? I've never seen you go to class late, but I saw you go late with her. She's my friends, she was so nice. Why? I hope she only likes you. Maybe it's just that your sister is friends with her. I hope. I mean likeshe's cool & all, but do you like..her? Maybe she's just a family friend. he. I hope. I never told you this, but the only thing I do right around you is turn red. I can't act like a normal person around you. I just always wanted to impress you. Everytime my turn up my music, I don't hear the music, I hear you, your foot steps, your breath. I've always wanted to be normal around you, but I can't help it. I can't sy anyting flirty, or say something nice. I can only insult, degrade, demote. Why? I really like you, I really do. I feel pressure in my body next to you. Everytime I see you, I really to get a glow in my face. My friends all like you. I'm different from all the others who hurt you. I likeyou the way you are. I really do. I wouldn't want to change you. Your perfect. My body throbs when I talk to you, when I breath you, when I hear you. Places ache like no tomorrow when our bare skin touchs. Why do I feel like this? Why are you with her now? Did you replace me with her? Can't you see, I like you & in a different way she does, in a different way everyone does. I feel faint beside you. You make me laugh so hard with something so simple. What's wrong with me? It's disgusting, How much I like. God, I hate it. I wanna kill you. But I won't. I like you. More then you know, more then they know, more then I know.

Lonely Birthday...?

My group of friends is HUGE, like 20-30 people. It's almost my birthday. I'm turning 16. Oldie. =P I invited like, ALL of my friends, only two are going FOR SURE. Burned, right? Yeahh... My guys friends all said their busy. One of my guy friends has extremely strick parents, I like him. He can't go. Sad much. I felt bad, I knew he did. He didn't want to make me feel bad so he gave his reason to my other friend of why he couldn't come. He spoke in viet/english. -sigh- I guess the valiant knight can't always make things better. Some how he always does, even when he isn't there. So my friend's Jan & Jewels are the only ones who can go, for sure. Sadly. Everyone else has a birthday or soemthing else. I can't help feel so sad that they can't go. It's kind of an icey feeling left that I know they can't come. I want to change my name. Not change, change, but like make a nickname, "Liz". Maybe everyone will remember Liz's birthday & come with her. Whatever. It'll be better on my real birthday...I hope..

Valiant Knight

Dear Valiant Knight,
You know this, & I know you know this but I love you. Your armor isn't broken by love, I've learnt, I understand. I know how you feel. I couldn't ethier until I met you. Nothing can make it into your heart because of the armor of scars you put up from all the hurt you've already felt. I hoped just once you'd let me in. You didn't. I tried for you to get someone else into your heart, they hurt you. I'm sorry. I'm in love for what you are, I hate so much yet, all I hate on you is beautiful, wonderful, I want you. Why can't I have you? Only because you can't look past my eyes & family name? Is that it? Look past, I beg of youl ook past. I'm alot more then you see. I'd do anything for you because your an addiction with everything you'll do. Your lips, make my heart quiver knowing I can't have them. What do you want? Tell me what you want. Is it my heart? Darling, you've had it on a plater. Look past my eyes, so your tender lips may touch mine for once. Is it fair Snow White's Prince Charming came looking for her, yet when I can't even get my Valiant Knight. Your voice is so sweet, like the nightengale's, I love it, I love you,
The Lonely Dragon Princess
I felt sad yestarday in the afternoon & I wrote this..

Major Pains

HOLY!! I'm having like the biggest period pains everr. You know it's funny, girls at my school fear tampons. I used them when i had swimming in gym, i think it's alot better then pads. Pads give you diaper rash. Not kidding, it can. Ohh & the new "U tampons" but Kotex are godly. <33LAWLZ!The eff? I'm talking about tampons beign godly when my ovries are bleeding in pain. I wanan die from the pain. You know Jacques is very matures about me using tampons. I know, the hell? Once, a pack feel on him while he waited for me by my locker & her just gave me like "you should put this in the garbage look". Well, talking about him...a few days ago, I poured water all over him. I won't lie.(I never lie)I had a very strong attraction to him when he was wet. Sorry. >__> Anyways, The tampon back also fell on Bani, he freaked out. He jumped pretty high. Last year, when i used pads, i had a pad fight with Near, Jacques & Bani. They acted like a girly girl with bugs.Near got the pad stuck on his shoulder, it was so funny. -burp- LAWLZ!Sorry, I was "IBB" because of dinner. Shrimps & rice. Hmm...I'm so proud of my best friend. He grew up with out me, he fell in love. I'm a little jealous the person he loves loves him back, but I'm proud for him, I love him, & I'm happy about this. ...I love how this was about pain, but now i'm talking about being happy. It's because "me & my period, were like this". I'm lame, I know. I kind of what the Samsung Galaxy, in white. It's really hot. Okayy, i'm done blogging. ;)

Four dreams in a row?

first i had the dreamabout spidey bar. Then i had this dream. Then i d this dream with Lissa & her bf, Meng, Shane (=__=), Jacques & I. The dream involved liek a "Sutie life on Deck" like theme. Mr Mosby was teaching little JK kids & they went crazy & ran hurting everyone. So Jacques & I ran into a glass room where only the door was coloured. We started to kiss. We got out as soon as the kids stopped. We held hand up to the buffet. Lissa & her bf asked if we were dating & we kissed. WTF? Then Shane yelled at us for dating & Jacques punched his face.Meng laughed. The next dream was. I forgot what the third dream was, but i know it had him. The fourth one was at the prom && everyone i knew was their dressed up as something stupid & he was my day. It was famous couple in the past, Siderman & Mary Jane. x)

Sewpa Keen & Spideyyy Bahh

So I had this WEIRD dream. It involved my best friend Annie & Ken. Also Jaques. So once Ken, Jaques & I had this convo about "what's the difference between spiderman & superman" & only my fobby big brother/best friend would ask that. I don't blame him. He was being my best friend, he wanted me & Jaques to talk because I liked him. Jaques didn't like me back. ): So kayy. Anyways, yestarday I had this dream. Ken was Sewpa Keen. While Jaques was Spidey Boy, but my friend Janchu calls him Spider Bar. I told her about that. x) Anyways, continuing the story. Annie was superman's girlfriend & they MADE OUT IN MY DREAM!!It was nasty, &&& Ken has his girl, Elaine. Then there was Jaques, he did that upsidedown kiss in the rain, TOO ME!It was a hot steamy kiss. But still.